Honestly, I'm Struggling: Stretched, Challenged, and Changed

God, are You there?
What in the world am I doing here?

Cambodia was the last place Heather Bohlender wanted to be—once she finally got there. She had been looking forward to serving as a student missionary nearly all her life and jumped at the chance to go on an adventure with God. But talking about going to Cambodia and actually going to Cambodia were two entirely different experiences.

There was the language and cultural barriers, her ongoing battle with an eating disorder, overwhelming loneliness, unwelcome (and sometimes terrifying) attention because of her skin color, and last, but certainly not least, the all-too-human struggle to find, know, and trust God—and all this in the midst of filth, poverty, and chaos.

A recipe for disaster? Almost. But Heather just kept breathing, kept praying, kept putting one foot in front of the other. The problems didn’t magically disappear, and she didn’t suddenly find peace and stability. No, she got hit by a car. And the eating disorder got worse. Oddly enough, though, she stumbled onto a completely new perspective of life.